Another pregnancy update

Well last night was an eventful night. I wasn't feeling well so I went to bed early. I woke up at midnight to a wet gush. I knew that couldn't be good so I went in to the bathroom. Sure enough there was the blood. It poured out for a minute and then I gathered all my strength and walked out to wake Nathaniel. I sat and cried and cried. Last week we had such a fabulous ultrasound and everything was looking perfect. I was beginning to have hope that everything was going to work out ok. After sobbing for a bit we woke my parents to let them know we were going to the ER. My dad and Nathaniel gave me a blessing and we headed out to the ER.

After waiting and waiting with a bunch of very sad, sick babies, it was my turn. They took blood work and then tried and tried to find a heart beat with the dopler. The nurse wasn't able to find it so out she went and we waited for the dr. He finally came in and tried again. He also couldn't find it. He thought he heard something but couldn't get it for sure. Then he did his exam and finally said the words I had been waiting for, "Let's do an ultrasound". Four hours after getting to the ER I was finally going to know for sure if my baby had died. She took me down to the room and I couldn't bring myself to look. Finally there was the baby with a heartbeat beating away. Sweet relief! However something was going on so she took a lot of pictures of everything and then said that the radiologist would look at it and get back to us.

Back to the room and an attempt to sleep. Nathaniel was able to doze a little but I couldn't sleep. I never can in hospitals. After what seemed like an eternity the dr came in and told me what was causing the bleeding. A large sub corionic hemorrhage. Really didn't explain it at all. Just said no lifting and pelvic rest. See your dr tomorrow. And then I was sent home. This morning I looked it up on the internet. My risk of miscarriage is increased because of it. It is good that I am younger than 35 and the baby is 12 weeks 4 days. Those drop the risk but the size of it increases my risks the most.

Went and saw the dr and he did another u/s and showed me the hematoma. It is definitely on the larger size. He told me that nothing I did caused this and there isn't anything I can do to stop a miscarriage if it is going to happen. We will just monitor closely. No heavy lifting, mainly that would mean Nicholas. Also back to the perinatalogist and another big u/s so they can measure it and see just how big it is. Then back to my dr in a week. I am trying to have hope and faith that everything is going to be ok. I feel peace that no matter what happens, I will be ok. I will survive what ever may come. I just sure hope that the outcome is better this time around than the last pg.